New year, new thoughts

When I was a kid, I honestly believed that I would never find a job.
My logic was that all jobs required interviews and since I was very shy, I’d never be able to talk to the interviewer.

This sounds a bit weird and kind of extreme, but it sort of makes sense if you knew that I didn’t start talking to my classmates and teachers until I was 7 or 8. Not because I couldn’t speak, but because I chose not to. I was petrified.

So by the time I reached 12, I started believing that I was never going to be able to find a job when I grew up.

This put me quite a bit behind my peers, because at 15, when they were all starting to look for jobs, I kept delaying it until the next year and then the next.

I didn’t get my first job until I was twenty two years old.

And then, it felt kind of liberating.

That was the first time I had broken a decade long childhood myth about myself. And ten years is a whooping long time to think this way about yourself. And I’m NOT OK with thinking that way about myself anymore.

This is why New Year’s resolutions have become so utterly important to me.
It’s a chance for me to hang up old fears, try something different and find out what other myths I can debunk about myself.

nysgirl

 

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